To work, or not to work...that is the question.

I had some time to adjust to being a new mom, but the pressing question on my mind was returning to work. Now that I have him, I am back on the theory that I want to take care of him myself, not let someone else do it. But the bills, my career, the house! Oh what is a mom to do?! This was a discussion Mike and I had at least once a week if not more, and I talked to other moms about it. I shared with my family looking for feedback and I prayed about it, most importantly. But I was on the fence about it right until the last minute. Mike assured me that we could make the mortgage and bills without my income since we had gotten along during my whole leave and done fine. He would support me either way, he said, but in the end I was the one who had to make the decision. What a decision this was! The biggest I would ever make.

Week 12, day 4 of my leave, and I still was not confident in what to do. Then I got the call from work, ironically the very call that I used to make before I went on leave as part of my job! I knew the voice, since I trained her to take over until I got back to work. When she called, I made my final decision right then and there: I would NOT be returning. *DEEP SIGH* There was no going back on this decision, it was final. I officially resigned and was changing my career from Human Resource Case Management Specialist to Stay at Home Mom. Now I am a full time mother, nurse, teacher, law enforcement, cook, housekeeper and personal assistant. Big job, and the most important one that I will ever do. No breaks, no vacations, no pay raises. Just the smile on my sons face and the satisfaction that I helped put it there. No regrets.